Esperanza

Hello there! How everyone this beautiful Saturday morning? I very new to this site but yet I feel very welcomed. I not yet figure out top make my site like I would like but it sure I will. I stay busy with work and I doing my best to remain sober I had some very hard days and I just wanted to give up and start top drink but then I ask myself why ? . I not only would give upon myself I would have let my buddies down that have been support. I lost allot since I inter the AA,NA code world but I also gain just about as much as I lost. I stay sober now for almost 6years and 3years was just me at my house in Tennessee. I moved down here to be closer to my family, well my family almost made me move and remain sober. I had drugs problems and I HAD the same time on both. I lost the time with the drugs but I gain knowledge and I have 26days today almost 30 and that where it all began. Well that little about me talk with you'll later

My roommate mesh nickname has a 5-year-old son. I called him bubba nickname. Mesh grew up poor and she convinces she needs to spoil bubba. Mesh feels bad that her son witness his dad hitting her so she spoils him more because of that. Mesh feels bubba might hate her for not getting out of the abuse relationship with her ex-husband. Budda does not even rember any of the abuse when you talk to him all you hear is why daddy does not live here anymore. Therefore, instead of telling bubba the truth she takes him to the store to get new toys. In addition, he honestly has no respect for her and it sad I sit back and watch a grown woman allow her 5years old child takeover. Budda gives her this look and mesh feels bad it almost as if mesh buying his love. I never experience this type odd parenting. Allowing her child to run the show and she just shakes her head and asks me what am I doing wrong? Why does not he listen to me like he does you? I told her I make bubba reasonable for his actions. When I watch bubba if he chooses not to listen and I have talked to him once. Mesh as this count to five things if you count to five and bubba is not doing what you asked then she pop his bottom. When I watch, he when she goes out and he decide to be bad I put in to the time out chair what a joke a rocking chair for punishment. Bubba just sit there and rocks until it time to get up. I not into the rocking chair idea I get him into the bath, brush his teeth, and goes to bed. When I babysitting there no ice cream at 9o’clock at night, unlike his mom gives him what ever he asked for. Mesh is very depressed she feels like she doing everything wrong and no one can help her out. Mesh is very ashamed of what she as done in her past. She goes to a program called AA. Mesh suffers from dieses unlike all of us we all have something wrong it takes an outside source to help.

I pray that my faith my be strengthened everyday

I pray that I may find confirmation of my life in the good and in the bad that had comes into my life

I read this prayer out loud everyday. I not into going to church, but I believe in praying.      

The question is can you pray and have faith in a Higher power without going into a building?

I never knew my father.  The lyrics to this song really hit home for me. 

What happened the first time you were left home alone as a child?
Submitted by Warhead.

My brother and I was only 6years old and we got into and huge fight and broke my grandma's picher her great grandma gave her and she was so upset she yelled at us we knew was in trouble just didn't know how much. My grandma was so upset all she could do was to put us outside the rest of the day until the sun went down, beacuse she didn't want us breaking anything else

What do you bring most to a friendship?

honesty, very blunt don't ask me a question if you really don't want to very honest answer